Aku Tak Tau....

Dah hampir 21/2 months aku ngan ida...but it seems macam there's no chemistry between us...sampai this stage pun aku still rasa empty bila bersama ida...evento aku spend a lot of time dgn ida...

Aku ni berpura-pura ke cintakan ida???Aku rasa yes...sebab there's no 'CINTA' for her...it just 'SUKA' bila aku di treat macam puteri bila i really need sumone by my side..tapi lama kelamaan aku jadi bosan!!!rimas!!!kalau ikutkan aku nak blah macam tu ajer..tapi aku tak sampai ati...n tak fair la untuk ida...

Aku dah lama decide nak cut off this relationship...tapi aku tak tau mcm mana aku nak mulakan...apa aku nak cakap kat ida...atas reason aper???

Aku sayang kat ida...tapi aku tak boleh g jauh ngan ida...dia tak memahami aku...n aku pun tak memahami dia..we're different!!!Aku perlukan sumone yg really understand me...sabar ngan kerenah aku...cool...macam 'dia'...only orang macam 'dia' ajer yang boleh buat aku stick wif sumone....

Ntah la...bila ida kiss my lips...pelik..aku tak rasa apa2 pun...aku tak nervous...aku tak berdebar...x macam masa aku ngan 'dia'...ngan ida...it just...-ok...we're kissing-that's all...its been a long time aku tak tido ngan ida...aku saja mengelak...tak rasa pun macam nak tido ngan dia...n kalau ngan ida....i'd prefer lagi hang out reramai rather than kami keluar berdua ajer...aku tak rasa pun yang aku perlukan our time together....

Yap...aku memang still tak boleh lepaskan 'dia'...aku selesa ngan 'dia'...thats was the reason kenapa aku tak boleh nak cintakan ida..aku nak ketawa kuat ker...nak makan comot2 ker...nak kentut ker...nak korek idung ker...'dia' tak kisah...kami share suma benda sama2...tak ada benda yang kami segan...

Hmm...sumtime kita memang kene let go orang yang kita sayang...for a good reason...aku cuma nak 'dia' bahagia..and aku tau 'dia' pun mengharapkan benda yang sama...

Macam seseorang ada cakap aku...
"just spend ur precious time wif her...selagi ada masa...awak akan hepi n awak tak akn menyesal bila dia dah tak ada lagi..."

This is what i'm doin now...spend time dgn 'dia'...macam dulu2...but no string attach...(sowi guna ayat awak..hehehe..) show her how much i love her...how much i care for her....eventho aku tau tak lama lagi 'dia' tak akn jadi milik aku lagi...

-MY BABY YOU-

As I look into your eyes

I see all the reasons why

My life's worth a thousand skies

You're the simplest love I've known

And the purest one I'll own

Know you'll never be alone

My baby you

Are the reason I could fly

And ¡ cause of you

I don't have to wonder why

Baby you

There's no more just getting by

You're the reason I feel so alive

Though these words I sing are true

They still fail to capture you

As mere words can only do

How do I explain that smile

And how it turns my world around

Keeping my feet on the ground

My baby you

Are the reason I could fly

And ¡ cause of you

I don't have to wonder why

Baby you

There's no more just getting by

You're the reason I feel so alive

I will soothe you if you fall

I'l be right there if you call

You're my greatest love of all

My baby you

Are the reason I could fly

And ¡cause of you

I don't have to wonder why

Baby you

There's no more just getting by

You're the reason I feel so alive

-aku-